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Hi AFB confessions! I usually don't like to talk about my problems but I just want to get this out. Its going to be a long one, read if you like.
I was raped by my brother when I was 5/6, my mom passed away when I was 11 in 2005 of M.S. My older brother got heavy into drugs and abused me. My grandpa died on Halloween in 2008 of cancer. We were really close and I was crushed. I am now 16, I just had a birthday and I feel worthless. I don't have interest in anything anymore. I don't talk to my friends, and I just sit in my room all day. I cut and burn myself to make me feel better. I do that because I feel if its my "punishment" for being born. I often think about dying. How i'm going to die, when, what my funeral will be like, who will cry, what will be said about me, ect. I don't want to be here anymore, but i'm afraid of death.
I'm very grateful for what my dad has done by supporting me, but he doesn't protect me. I love him but he is never around to see that. I have sex with my best friend because it makes me feel wanted but he has a girlfriend, and that makes me feel like a piece of shit. I'm young and very lost and confused about everything right now. This isn't supposed to be a "sob story" to make people feel bad for me. Thats not what I want. I just want to be heard.
Please no nasty, mean, or rude comments. I'm writing this to feel better, not worse. Thanks for reading.

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	Anonymous	About a month ago
I had a similar childhood and the best advice I ever got was to prove the people that hurt you wrong by being successful. Please don't think you are worthless, I have never responded to a post before and yours touched me. Cutting and burning make you feel, but they are just dangerous and not a good way to handle your emotions. Talk to a school counselor or priest or pastor if you can not afford therapy. It really does help. You can be an amazing person and help other people who feel the way you do. I work in social work now, and try to help as many people as I can who have been through things like you and I have. You are worth more than I can say, and have so much good to do in the world!

	The tall guy	About a month ago
She said no mean comments assholes be nice you don't know if she's lying or not

	The tall guy	About a month ago
She said no mean comments assholes be nice you don't know if she's lying or not

	SCD	About a month ago
awwwwwww babe things will get better ! i promisee just have faith ! xxx

	Anonymous	About a month ago
you sound rather chirpy for someone who was raped by her brother. please, at least make your trolls looks realistic, please, try, just for me? you don't want this to be asob story for people to feel sorry for you? well, well done, i don't feel sorry for you, i'm pissed that i just wasted 2 minutes of my life reading this, and further two minutes typing up this COMMENT!! but , it had to be said. Go away and take your shit troll with you.

	ImYOURpussy	About a month ago
WTF!?!?!?!

	lass with no arms	About a month ago
get a wash

	Josue Javier Garcia Cantu Alaniz Villareal Lopez B	About a month ago
unsuccessful troll is unsuccessful troll

	Anonymous	About a month ago
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the world is treating me bad. it's so unfair.....sorry girly ...heard it all before...you will either get your shit together or end up on the street doing hand jobs for crack....your choice

	Anonymous	About a month ago
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	Dan	About a month ago
One more thing, Staying busy and active really has a tremendous effect when you are down. Mine is building things. I hope that everthing or at least one thing has helped. Hang in there, You will find happieness

	Dan	About a month ago
Hi there. One thing that i have learned through the years is that, sometimes it comes down to yourself. how yourself love and in time you will be loved in return. Something that I believe is that Faith never leaves ones soul, it is only buried, I understand it is hard but the biggest and best thing to have faith in is to know that you will make it through. I may not know you but I have faith in you,

	TheBrunettes	About a month ago
I hope things will get better for you and just ignore the rude and insensitive people commenting.I feel really sorry for you when i read your confessions and i think that you should see a doctor about this and you'll start feeling alot better :) Good luck

	Anonymous	About a month ago
Depression ("giving up")+ Borderline personality disorder (the cutting/burning). Go talk to your doctor, he'll/she'll help

	ARandomGuy	About a month ago
@Anonymous: Since when does "It's a terrible thing" mean it's ok? I never said that. I pretty much said "do as you please at your own cost, but don't get carried away." And I give out damn good advice, bitch!

	Anonymous	About a month ago
Be careful when you do cut yourself/burn yourself if your consistently doing it without providing first aid or treating the wounds you can develop a blood infection which takes sometimes months to cure. You can die from a blood infection if it just keeps getting worse and worse over time. I recommend you seek help or therapy from a school guidance counselor, don't tell them you wanna kill yourself or anything like that because they can "302" you which means they can put you in a mental institution against your will and drug test you without your parent's permission.

	eugenie	About a month ago
@Anonymous: Whiner. At least you GET welfare and have a roof over your head. You need to stop whining... you're 26 ffs, it's not like you spent your life building up a huge career that's now gone.

	Anonymous	About a month ago
@ARandomGuy: No its not okay to cut yourself no matter what the excuse. So stop lending out that advice.

	Anonymous	About a month ago
Im 26 and before the recession i was making good money. really fucking good money at an investment firm. now i sleep on a pull out sofa in my fathers 1 bedroom apt. i live off of welfare and food stamps. had to sell every thing i own. my girlfriend left me. all my "friends" wont talk to me. cant get a job pumping gas. i failed miserably at killing myself. so basically im 10 yrs older than you and my life consists of watching cartoons, reading afb, and looking at porn. at least your getting some, of which i have not in over a year and a half.

	:)	About a month ago
ill do you and make you feel wanted :)

	WOLFZ	About a month ago
if only i could say what i wanted with out getting banned ='{

	ARandomGirl	About a month ago
Self mutilation is never okay. Seek therapy.

	Original Poster	About a month ago
Anonymous below me? Your an ass, Get a life. And everyone else? Thanks for your advice. I will take some into consideration.

	Anonymous	About a month ago
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be proud to be a whore...a lot of guys get no pussy at all except from whores just like you ...so revel in it and try to do as many men and boys as you can ...get good at it...and start charging...a new career is waiting.

	Fontana	About a month ago
I have many friends that cut, burn, etc... Never consider killing yourself until you're twenty...it's so funny to read these kids giving kids advice. Sorry for the hardships confessor, each life has it's challenges and each one will make you more capable of dealing with the next. You'll eventually realize that each day has its own blessings and that these are what should define a life, not it's low points. Keep your head up and your smile ready.

	CaptainObvious	About a month ago
I would seek out therapy and hopefully you have insurance to cover it. You were deeply traumatized, as you can now see it manifesting through your behaviors of cutting, etc. A good therapist will listen without judging and offer ways that you can cope in a healthy way. It is horrible what happened but there are a lot of successful people who have gone through things just as bad or (I know it is hard to imagine) worse. I don't say that to lighten your situation, just to put it into perspective. There IS HELP for you, you just need to seek it out. you are WORTH IT!

	anonanon	About a month ago
Don't sit in your room. Get yourself out there, even if it's just with one friend. You will be surprised how much it will boost your self confidence and friendships with others will just come naturally from there. Surround yourself with love. And yes, don't be ashamed to seek therapy regarding your grief and confusion over your abuse...it really does help to talk....trust me.

	Norm	About a month ago
I disagree with RandomGuy... Cutting yourself isn't ok. Find a different outlet, like a punch bag or something. As Noobe said, some of it IS part of growing up, you've just got to hang in there. Try talking to your friends about stuff that gets you down and that upsets you. Alot of people are usually understanding. Also, I'd suggest at least seeing a therapist over the issues with your Mother and grandfathers deaths(sorry to hear) and posssible of oyur choice, talk about what happened with your brother. Find yourself a boyfriend, and stop shagging someone elses :) Good luck, hope it helps!

	dr.love	About a month ago
Hi! My advice is to look better around you and to surch people who really love you. I'm sure you're a sociable person and you can find a lot of friends. Because you are just 16 please try to do apropriat things to your age. I'm sure a great friend can help you out. good luck xx

	DD	About a month ago
its a fuckin cruel world, personally i would move away, make a fresh start and meet new people, go find the happiness you deserve

	ARandomGuy	About a month ago
I hope everyone follows your no rude comments rule. I have many friends that cut, burn, etc. Terrible thing really. But I guess if it helps you feel something, then do it. But please don't kill yourself. Every single human life is important. Good luck.

	Anonymous	About a month ago
@leNoobe: What a ridiculous and terrible thing to say to a misguided youth. Are you actually suggesting that at 20 years old, a person will know whether they should continue living or give up and kill themselves?

	leNoobe	About a month ago
most of it is part of being a teenager. at least wait until your 20 before you decide as to whether life is worth living.

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